pleasant pleasure

I was standing in the front row of a crowd shouting your name, holding a paper bag filled with something I made specially for you. A wooden puzzle, on each pieces were my name written smally but the puzzle would be completed without the piece with your name on it. But how I’m suppose to gave it, I thought. Should I scream your name and toss it to him as you walked by? Or should I wait a chance to sneak into your dressing room and gave it directly? If I did sneak to your dressing room, I’d be dead by now. It must be guarded with a few huge guys that I can’t deal with so I decided to used the first option.

My ears started to get hurt caused  the noise of your fans was getting louder. And there you were. Astonished by your appearance, dazed by the perfect smile, I began to count the timing to gave my gift to you. It feels like everything in slow motion, I could even hear my heartbeat thumping in my ears and the noise of the screaming fans were gone slowly. I couldn’t repeat what was happening cause it was so fast. I didn’t remember screaming your name. But then all I could see was my puzzles were scattered on the red carpet in front of you, accidentally.

You stopped walking, looked down at my puzzle pieces and picked it up. Still with the perfect smile, you searched the crowd to find whose puzzle was it. As some point you met my eyes and smiled even wider. Undeniably shocked that you really saw me, I just stand still unable to move a muscle while other fans were still screaming and jumping full of excitement. Then you knew it was my puzzle. I felt like being statued there at the moment you walked towards me!

The fans screamed even more loudly but I heard nothing, my eyes were locked on you. As you reach me, you took the paper bag in my hand slowly, without your eyes leaving mine, and put the puzzle pieces in. You said something but I still couldn’t hear anything so I just smiled shyly back at you. Leeteuk tapped your shoulder to remind you about the red carpet. As I left statued, you continued your walk on the red carpet. I could only stare at your back slowly disappeared into the entrance of the hall.

After I watched your Super Junior performance, I went home still very shocked that you really talked to me! OH MY GOD! I flew all the way to Korea just to see you in a close range and hopeful to get a chance to give this puzzle to you, yet I met you in a really close range and you talked to me! What on earth did just happened..

I arrived at my hotel almost midnight. I went straight to my room and sat on the balcony for some fresh air after all the shocked I had that day. Enjoyed the night view of Seoul and wondered what was it that you said back then. I tilted the paper bag so all the pieces fell down, followed by a small piece of paper. A note. But I didn’t write any note for you before. I abruptly picked it up, and it said : “NAMSAN TOWER 1 AM, C.S.”

I knew ‘C.S.’ stands for Choi Siwon, who else could it be? What I didn’t know was when did you write the note? All I remembered was you smiling at me all the time on the red carpet. I don’t care. I looked at my watch, damn it was already 1 AM! The tower is almost 40 minutes away so I hurried down to the hotel lobby and quickly catch a cab.

It was past midnight so the tower park was empty, only white snows falling from the dark sky. My heartbeat thumped quickly again. I was afraid that you’d already left because I was 30 minutes late. How could a superstar like him asked to meet an ordinary girl like me, in a place as beautiful as this Namsan Tower, right after his performance? What a crazy idea if I may say. But I believed it anyway.

I kept looking on every bench, but you were not on any of them. I began to feel like giving up, right at that time someone called my name.

“Rechelle, are you?” a familiar voice went through my ears. I turned to where the voice came from. I could see you were still wearing the same clothes at the red carpet, only now covered with thick black coat. Holding two cups of coffee on your hands, walked towards me. I felt the shock all over my body, again. ‘He called my name? HE CALLED MY NAME??’ was in my head and I just statued there standing, again.

“It’s cold out here, drink this.” he gave me the cup of which he held in his right hand. I receive it and started to get back to my senses. “Let’s sit somewhere warm, shall we?” he took my empty hand and walked me to the stairs of the tower.

“I know you maybe wondering when did I wrote that tiny note. It doesn’t matter. I can see that you are different from any other fans out there,” I stayed silent in confusion of what you meant, and you continued “I like your puzzle, did you make it for me? It’s beautiful, just like you and your name.”

“Kamsahamnida, Siwon sunbae,” was all I could say through the freezing tounge.

You smiled warmly at me and when I smiled back, you smiled even more happily until I could see your dimples. It happened you hadn’t let go of my hand as we sat down by the stairs. At that point, I know this could be the start of something new.

smoochies ♥